Hello to Day 2

Fuck it. I suck. Let's face it, I'm never gonna be that thin girl in short shorts with sexyass leather boots, walking down the street with no shame. I'm so full .. i feel nauseous. I ate more than my boyfriend today. Please just deep fry me and put me on a platter cause I'm a plump pig, I have a lot of meat. Byebye blog.. for tonight cause I'm not in the mood to write. Hoping for better days.

Hello to Day 1

Day 1 of ABC. Didn't go as well as I planned. It's so hard to stay on a strict diet when you have a boyfriend that keeps telling you to eat. My day was going absolutely great until he ordered dinner for me. Now I'm just a depressed, fatass bitch. Honestly, I need to get in control again. I keep letting myself go.. telling myself that tomorrow's a new day. But in reality, that's not true. Tomorrow is going to be different, depending on how I make my Today. I feel like i lost another battle. I don't even want to hop on the treadmill anymore. I might just let myself go.. actually no, I'm not going to let that happen. I'm still going to continue with ABC.. I just don't know how successful I'm going to be but it's worth the try. I didn't weigh myself yet cause I got too scared. I felt that if i saw the numbers, I'd freak even more. So, tonight I'm just going to try and relax, maybe catch up on some reading.. have a smoke or two and force myself to bed. It'll be okay...

Hello to FAIL

Today was a failure. I planned on starting ABC today, but I faaaaaaaailed. real bad. I woke up and weighed myself. The scale told me 104.5 and I was actually quite happy, regarding the fact that I basically had a thanksgiving dinner round 2 last night. I was still full from dinner and didn't have much appetite so I just had a granola bar for breakfast. But, my mom forced me to eat with her at this mexican restaurant. That just ruined my day. I felt way too fat so i tried purging but I got paranoid that my mom would hear me so I gave up. I had too many carbs and calories in me that I didn't feel hungry throughout the day. Went to starbucks to keep myself busy. I got green tea, yummy :) this was basically the only good thing my body got today. The rest was just shit. But it's okay, I washed my guilt away with a couple cigarettes. I just weighed myself and I'm 106.5 ... gross. My mom's making dinner and I'm pretty sure she's gonna be calling me down to eat, but hell no. I'm not touching ANYTHING tonight. Tomorrow better be a success. I'm definitely gonna start my ABC tomorrow. I don't give a shit what anyone says. I'll just play off the I'm-stressed-out-and-sick-so-I-lost-my-appetite thing tomorrow :) Good luck to me!

Love, Ana

I'm back to announce that I actually ate two bites of cream-filled bread. I feel extra fat. I suck at life. Time for thinspiring pictures.
feels good to be on the treadmill once in awhile :)
it's been too long since i last bonded with my friend named exercise

Hello to My Story

I've never felt beautiful, not once, but ana helped me cope with that. I've been ana for about two years but it's been on and off. I was never really heavy until I hit high school. My weight always remained under 100 pounds, but once i started gaining weight, i ballooned up to 120. I'm only 5'2'' so being 120 made me look like a fckin whale, no kidding. Eventually, i got sick of being fat and ugly. I hated mirrors. I hated looking at myself. I just didn't like me. I've never felt so worthless. So, I found ana and dropped down to 90 pounds. My parents started noticing the rapid weight loss, so to avoid being forced into some bullshit psychiatrist/psychologist program I started putting on some weight.. little by little. But, being the fat pig i am, i lost control and went back to 120. I'm currently 105-107 and still struggling to get back to where i was. I know I can do it and so can anyone else. I hope I don't fall again. Comments are always welcome<3

Love, Ana

Hello to my new blog!

Hi :)
This blog is for Pro Ana/Mia's.
I know there are some of you who are against Ana's and Mia's,
but just to let you know, this blog is not intended to promote it.
I am not forcing ideas upon anyone.
This is a place where ana's and mia's can write for support
and advice. We all are on the same journey toward the same goal.
Please have respect for it.
And for every Ana and Mia...
I hope you stay strong!
All of us chose this type of lifestyle for a reason,
let's not forget that.

Love, Ana