Hello to Bullshit Medicine that Makes You Fat

Long time no see, blog! I seem to say this every time I post 'cause I rarely do now. Life's a tangled mess and it leaves no time for blogging... seriously breaks my heart 'cause I used to be highly addicted to reading all your blogs and all that jazz! Anyways, my dad thinks that I look too "thin and fragile", so he's feeding me this medicine that's supposed to make you "healthier." I interpret that as... making me FAT. I've actually noticed my appetite increasing more and more since I've been on this mediation. I keep craving food and I can't help but just EAT! It's starting to drive in INSANE, guys! I've been stable at 97 lbs right before I started this medicine bullshit. Now, I'm up to 101.5 lbs. WHAT the fuck. That's ho

w much I weigh after a late night binge... and now that's how much I weigh in the morning when I'm the lightest through the day. FUCK ME NOW. Fuck. I'm so fucking pissed. I've been bingeing at like 3 in the fucking morning.. EVERY FUCKING DAY.

Oh, and to make it even better... this guy I'm dating feeds me like I'm fucking 7 months pregnant. He says he wants to fatten me up a little bit... Am I your like... cushion-y hugging buddy or something? I don't want to be a short, plump, squishy person, OK?! Sorry for all this anger but i just HAD to let it out. Okay, now that it's out. Time to devise a plan to backfire my Dad's plan. I'm going to try my hardest to eat a big breakfast and keep the res

t of the meals as minimal as possible. Better yet, just eat breakfast and liquids only after. I'd have to see how this works 'cause I've been eating a lot since I'm usually with friends. Wish me luck and see you soon, blog!

Think thin & Starve the fuck on!

Love,Ana

P.S. THIS is what i'm going to look like... sooner or later!

Hello to A Bitch named Life

Hello blog and oh how dearly sorry i am for abandoning you! Life hasn't been treating me so well, please understand. I've been going through a bit too much, didn't have time to really post. And, on top of that, I need to start packing soon... I will be moving far far away. It's bittersweet, I guess. I've wanted to get out of this place for so damn long, but the thought of being apart from all my friends and family just scares the shit out of me. Starting ALL over in a totally different place. Sounds exciting, eh? But just a bit scary, not much, but a bit. SOOOOO, before I move away, I NEED TO LOSE SOME DAMN WEIGHT ! It sucks cause I've been at this plateau for so long! I've been maintaining 98 lbs the last few days, but today it shot up to 101.5 Ask me why? I don't know .... UGH. Popped a lax so that should help me go down to about 99.5 to 100? i don't know.. FUCK. I need to stop drinking. I've been drinking everyday to keep myself away from drugs, you know? Life's too stressful to stay sober. I fucking hate life. Fuck you, life! Enough of my ranting.. I need to get out of this fat mess, and start restricting again. All this alcohol and junk food ain't goin to do any good for these fatass thighs!

Love,Ana